Enlightenment Is the End of Suffering. But Not in the Way You Think.
It’s not the end of pain. It’s the end of pretending.
Everyone wants relief. That’s why most people chase awakening. The end of suffering. That’s the promise, right?
And it’s true. But not in the way I thought. Not in the way most people imagine.
It’s not that suffering disappears. It’s not that you float through life untouched by pain or never get triggered again. It’s that you lose the ability to ignore what’s causing it. You gain the capacity to see through every story that used to protect you. Every subtle escape. Every mask. Every twist of identity trying to feel safe.
And without those stories to hide behind, you’re left with what’s here. Raw. Unfiltered. Everything you never wanted to feel.
Not everyone experiences it this way. Some awaken gently, with little drama. But for many, especially those who used awakening to escape themselves, this is the part no one talks about.
You see what you’ve avoided your whole life. You feel it. You have no choice. Awakening doesn’t erase your wounds. It burns the bridges you used to run from them.
That’s what people don’t tell you.
Yes, the deep background suffering ends. That quiet hum of "something is off" vanishes. The illusion of a separate self collapses. But in its place comes a brutal honesty. A clarity that won’t let you pretend anymore. And if you’ve spent a lifetime building a self around pretending, that clarity will wreck you.
You won’t be able to numb it. Not without feeling the cost. You won’t be able to blame anyone. Not without watching it fall apart mid-sentence. You won’t even be able to convince yourself that you’re special for waking up. That story turns to ash the moment you reach for it.
You will face everything you thought awakening would save you from. And it will fucking hurt.
But that’s where something real can begin. Something tender. Not as an identity. Not as a performance. Just life, stripped of the lie.
Are you sure you still want the truth?
“Losing the ability to ignore”….I feel at some point it became about losing all that I held together, maybe that’s what it means to let go
This is the right way. If one still minds, as the post asks, then one is 'near-liberated' (cula-sotapanna). If one is clear about this state, has no doubt, then selfing is relinquished.