The Vault
This is the private side of this space
It holds the writings that cut deeper than what’s shared publicly. These are not articles. Not teachings. Not content. They are severance transmissions. Mirrors for those who are ready to dismantle the scaffolding completely — or who already have, and are living in the wreckage of what’s left.
The Vault also includes group meetings. These are not teaching spaces. They are not therapy. They are not for sharing tools, practices, or strategies. They are a place to sit in the burn together. Without pretense. Without performance. Sometimes reflecting on a piece of writing. Sometimes open. Sometimes silent.
This isn’t a product. It isn’t a service. It isn’t content made for consumption.
It’s a living fire. A field.
The wall around the Vault isn’t a paywall in the usual sense. It’s the boundary that holds the fire. This entire field - the burn, the writing, the pointing, the land, the sanctuary - lives because the ones who are fed by it feed it in return.
Suan Jai and the fire are the same movement.
A small piece of land in rural Thailand. A sanctuary for stray animals. A quiet retreat space. A home for the aftermath. For whatever life becomes when the story collapses.
This isn’t a business model. This isn’t charity. It’s not teaching. It’s just life supporting life in this form.
Subscriptions sustain the field. The burn. The writing. The care for the animals. The building of Suan Jai.
Index of Severance Tools
🔥 The Death of Shadow Work
Severs one of the most seductive traps on the path. The belief that healing the self leads to freedom. Collapses the scaffolding of integration, parts work, and psychological repair.
→ Released: July 2, 2025
🔥 Interpretation Is the Self (The End of “Me” – Part 1)
Exposes the core illusion behind identity. Shows how the constant interpreting of sensation is what makes the self. This is where the scaffolding begins to crack.
→ Release date: July 8, 2025
🔥 The Fabrication of Experience (The End of “Me” – Part 2)
Tears open the dream of “my life.” Shows how experience itself is nothing but stitched meaning layered on raw perception. Nothing ever happened, not like that.
🔥 The Machinery of Separation (The End of “Me” – Part 3)
Reveals how the mind turns meaning into “me.” How sensation becomes ownership. How narrative builds the illusion of distance. This is where the false divide collapses.
🔥 The Collapse of Continuity (The End of “Me” – Part 4)
Burns the thread of time. Exposes how the illusion of someone moving forward, progressing, deepening, unfolding, is just another lie. The end of the path.
🔥 The Futility of Action
When continuity collapses, the machinery of meaning collapses with it. Action is revealed as motion without purpose, without progress, without anyone moving it forward. The end of the dream of doing.
🔥 Fear is a Lie
Not a soothing. Not a bypass. The clean, brutal, direct collapse of the lie of fear. What remains when the storyline of danger dissolves.
This is a living archive. New transmissions will appear over time as the burn continues. There is no schedule. No formula. Just the fire moving when it moves.
Not Sure If This Is Your Fire?
Why I Refuse to Sell the Dream - This is the line in the sand.
→ Release date: July 3, 2025
The Gate Is Not Gateless - If you don’t know whether you want this, read this before you walk through the door.
→ Release date: July 10, 2025
Patron of the Fire (Founding Member)
If you recognize the weight of this fire - not for what you get, but for what it is - and you’re in a position to help carry the load, this is an open invitation.
It holds the same access as a standard subscription. No perks. No bonuses. No backstage pass.
It’s simply a way to throw more wood on the fire - for the ones who can’t, for the ones who will, and for the fire itself.